let yourself fly

So it's been decided that I will be attending FIT in the fall, instead of SVA, which..saddens me greatly in many ways because SVA was my top school and all..but since FIT starts all applicants with their associates' degree, I've realized I could always go there for two years and transfer; worse comes to worse. Granted, both schools are located in Manhattan - they are actually ten blocks away from each other - they have a great atmosphere, their foundation programs are generally the same, and I will no doubt about it have a great time, because a) I won't be on Long Island; b) I'll be in arguably one of the greatest cities on the planet; and c) I'll be able to concentrate on more of what I love doing, which is photography, and not all of that other mumbo-jumbo bullshit that they teach in school that you just KNOW you'll never use in your every day life..
Of course, my mother is having her little incestuous breakdowns..as if I'm not stressed enough as is, haha. It's the whole, "are you SURE you want to do this?" and the, "oh, TRUST ME..I know you generally don't care, Killian, but..when you have a chain-smoking, r&b loving roomate, you will" - basically stupid nonsensical shit that I just wish would end. I think, for the most part, she worries because I'm basically the first person in my immediate family to attend college..who knows.
Anyway..hopefully this will all gradually become better. We'll see..

so bamboozle was pretty great..

..not gonna lie. Most of the bands I were familiar with, but I was introduced to some new ones, too..I met some cool people, as well. Unfortunately, none of them live by me..no new news. :/
Can't wait for Warped! I'm gonna try and go 7/16-7/18..
7/16 - Camden, NJ
7/17 - Uniondale, NY
7/18 - Oceanport, NJ
There goes another one of my paychecks! :D Totally worth it, though..

introduction.

So you want to know all about me, who
I am.
What chance meeting of
brush and canvas painted
the face
you see? What made
me despise the girl
in the mirror
enough to transform her,
turn her into a stranger,
only not.
so you want to hear
the whole story. why
I swerved
off the high road,
hard left to nowhere,
recklessly
indifferent to those
coughing my dust,
picked up speed
no limits, no top end,
just a high velocity rush
to madness.


[excerpt from 'Crank,]

run away - yeah yeah yeahs.

I was feeling sad
Can't help looking back
Highways flew by
Run, run, run away
No sense of time
Want you to stay
Want keep you inside

Run, run, run away
Lost, lost, lost my mind
Want you to stay
Want you to be my prize

Run, run, run away
Lost, lost, lost my mind
Want you to stay
Want you to be my prize

I was feeling sad
Can't help looking back
Highways flew by
Run, run, run away
No sense of time
Want you to stay
Want keep you inside

All along, not so strong without these open arms.
Hold on tight.
All along, not that strong without these open arms.
Lie beside.
All along, not so strong without these open arms.
Ride beside.

Run, run, run away
Lost, lost, lost my mind
Want you to stay
Want you to be my prize

Run, run, run away
Lost, lost, lost my mind
Want you to stay
Want you to be my prize.

puh.

I need a break..don't we all?

two more weeks.

and I'm gonna have to come up with an answer..it's so mixed, really, cause I mean..I have my family telling me to go to FIT; it's cheaper, you'll take out less in loans, it's still in Manhattan, blah, blah blah blah blah blah. Whatever. Personally; and I'm really not just saying this because FIT is a state school, or anything..either way, the difference between whether or not it's a state or private school is irrelevant; that school has given me a bad first impression. First off, their 'campus tour' involved a slideshow in a cramped room that didn't ONCE mention anything about their photography program, whatsoever. All they did was go on and on about their fashion and fashion merchandising programs, which...great, we all know you're a fashion school, but c'mon..you still have other majors, no matter how small in comparison. Also, their required 'portfolio' consisted of 30 photographs, then a 'challenge' thing. Most schools ask for 10, 15, at MOST 20 images.
Now, SVA, on the other hand..their campus tour actually involved going through ALL of their buildings and discussing everything about ALL of their programs..also, their BFA photography program is one of their biggest programs. They are a pricey school, mostly because they are private, but it's really no matter if they're private or a state college; it's quality, not quantity, am I right?
My heart's in SVA..and I'm not going to go against that. I can't..no matter what I have to do to get there..


Also, mann..I really want an egg roll right about now.. (8

Monday, April 13th, NYC...if you're interested.

I'm going to try and attend, unfortunately..because it's a monday, I'm not so sure.
Stephen Frailey, if unknown to you, is the Chair of BFA Photography at the School of Visual Arts, where I'm planning to attend in the fall. He is also the creator of Dear Dave Magazine, which, if you're interested, the link is below. He's hosting a session with photographers Oliva Chanarin and Adam Broomberg, holding conversations about contemporary photography among artists, editors, and curators. It's open to pretty much anyone, it's free, and if you're interested in learning more or just hearing what they have to say about photography today, then I believe you'll find it interesting. Also, if I may add, SVA hosts numerous lectures and sessions, as well as having three galleries, and all of those things are open to the public..if you go to their website, I'm sure you can find more information on it.

http://www.deardavemagazine.com
http://www.sva.edu